back to work

moved.
roller coaster ride.
stressful.
must only go up from here.
must.

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Pablo Neruda

"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you directly without problems or pride:
I love you like this because I don’t know any other way to love,
except in this form in which I am not nor are you,
so close that your hand upon my chest is mine,
so close that your eyes close with my dreams."

Pablo Neruda is the shit. HONESTLY!!!!

you broke me

“And I, infinitesima­l being,
drunk with the great starry
void,
likeness, image of
mystery,
I felt myself a pure part
of the abyss,
I wheeled with the stars,
my heart broke loose on the wind.”
― Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets

i only think of you. all the time, and it breaks me into a million little pieces.

Toilet paper

So I have an unhealthy obsession with having enough toilet paper in my household. I am not afraid to buy in bulk at Sam's club. The 24 pack... Yes please. And yes I do live alone and have for years. But I need at least 10 backup rolls. I do. I don't know why. So as I am watching tv, I see a commercial for the decorative backup roll holder. Designed be a well known designer. Wtf? Do you really need that? I don't. I can barely be bothered to put the toilet paper on the roll. And if there is one on the roll, I still use the one on the cabinet. So now, you, the commercial hocker, want me to spend money on a round container to hold the "back up" toilet paper roll. Have we really gotten this vain that we need a decorative holder?

So here's the deal kids... If you come over to my humble abode, there will be a roll of toilet paper on the holder, and one on the cabinet. And no decorative holder. It's just silly. Damn silly. And these are the things I think about.

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Seriously?

Is it really that important to answer your phone in the bathroom? I mean honestly? Who does that? Oh wait you do. So self important.


And for the record, I am still sleeping at apartment A. Not new apartment B. With the cable still on. I win.
I also went over and unpacked almost everything. It's so tiny. But I can make it cute.

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Moving fail...

So my couch didn't fit in the door of the new apartment. I took it as a sign that i should have one more night at home. Take that eviction guys. Take that. Meh

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today is the day

today is my official moving day.

i am putting on a full face of make-up in the hopes it will help me not cry. it may be silly, but it has to work! i hope. i also have to finish the final packing of things. i am dragging my feet on that too, as you can tell since i am writing, instead of packing. i wonder if i can keep blogging for awhile? somehow i am going to try. today will be great. if i say it, the universe doesn't have any choice but to help me. right...

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moving...

i got evicted.

yup, i wrote that. i fucking got evicted. the whole complex is being torn down for student housing. it makes me want to scream. and cry(which i have done almost everyday). the thought of moving after 12 years is so overwhelming and crazy. i am sitting on my couch for the last night here. and of course, tears are streaming down my face. the new apartment is much smaller. and a basement apartment. i keep thinking of all the "last" things... my last shower, the last time the train blows by, the last night sleeping in the same room for 12 years.

and you know what is super stupid? i travel for a living. for 15 years. new places all the time. but do i want to actually move my household? hell no. i can also pack a 53' truck without batting an eyelash, but packing a box of my stuff? i am incapable. i had to have someone come over to pack my kitchen, because i didn't know how. so i am a crying mess, and incapable of packing. holy jeebus.

no title

i would like a full day to myself. that's all i have in this moment to write about. i have to get ready for work again. this week is like 8 shows in 4 days.
day. for. me. please.

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snow

remember when i asked for snow?
i am over it now.
and just found out we're coming back to toronto in june.
and it's snowing again. this wussy, spitting, poopy, snow. it's annoying.
and it might be colder at home, then here. poor mommy and brett and rach, and the wee ones.
right now it looks like a snow globe out. a dollar store snow globe.
shoot, i have to pack.

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hi

i would be so much better at blogging if i could remember my password for longer than a week. i mean i knew the memory slipped as you aged, but damn. i have to get password assistance which involves 2 emails, and then i feel so stupid. but i finally wrote it down in the hopes i would get better at it...

dang.

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week of c-mas

so it's my day off, and what time did i wake up? 6:20-ish? awesome. and did the hotel turn off the water for 8 hours? yes they did. no h20 until 5 pm tonight. did i already take a bath ? yes. haha hotel, take that. and where is our snow in toronto? it keeps spitting, but no full on snow. i think if it's cold, it should snow. i am just sayin'. i found the today show, which is quite exciting in the canada. and maybe i should conquer the mall when it opens, so i can shop unmolested.

oh, and by the way canada, let's work on that' "excuse me", while we're at it. not soorrey, but excuse me. annoying. but i like your funny money...

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c-mas shopping

so what do you get for a family who wants for nothing? i have no idea. therefor, i have yet to get my family christmas gifts. dangit. i love them and wish i could be there...

ugh.

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today

i have rehearsal today. yay? and even thought it's sunny out, it looks cold. i am going to have to check the weather channel.
boring post, semi-boring day...

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fire alarm

guess what they are testing right now? over and over again. i am wearing earplugs and already talked to the sweet firemen in the hallway. i see that it could be an afternoon project opposed to the morning. i am just sayin...
earplugs before 11 am are just weird unless you're on a plane, or still asleep.
thank you toronto for being so dilligent in your testing. i appreciate it since i am staying on the 17th floor. but couldn't we wait until, say, after 1 or so...

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humor

do you ever have those moments when you think you're really funny? like you could do stand-up. i have those moments a lot. by myself, clearly.

oh, by the way, some dumb bitch puked all over the bar i was at and i got it on my hand. is it safe to bleach oneself???
awesome.

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boys

boys are dumb.

job

Dear Toronto,

So far I think you're a pretty neat town. But I would like a little less rain and a little more snow. And could you work on people from here, saying excuse me. It is just 2 little words, 3 syllables. It makes me less cranky when people use excuse me, or i am sorry. I like the mall across the street. I like it too much actually. And I love the Coach store.
I like all the restaurants I have been to so far, but can we also work on the unsweetened vs sweet tea here. If it comes from a gun, it's not real sweet tea. I am southern, I should know.
Thanks for letting me get that off my chest.

Maybe we can get together later...
Call me.

Paige



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oh good pete

hi,
remember me. a wee simple blog for the masses and i haven't written in almost a year. i am terrible at this and i apoligize. i really do. my "job" makes me want to do nothing when i get home. so writing hasn't been on the up and up...
anywho, i will try and get better.
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newark

yup, kids, i am in the booming metropolis of newark, new jersey.
the home of...

um, the home of...

well, the home of, the great transit system that will take me into the city.

YAY NEWARK

i think.

hmmmm, hope it warms up a bit.

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( this presently pathetic blog. it will get interesting again...)